I’ve been in therapy for about a year and a half now. I like my therapist and I think I’ve made a lot of progress.
It helps sometimes. Today was hard. We talked about hard things that I haven’t thought of in a while.
Lots of emotions. Sadness. Emptiness. Anger. Tears.
I want to feel better but I don’t. Fed up of going round in circles. I was doing pretty well for a few months and now I’ve gone backwards again.
We talked about me feeling like I’m not real and feeling not present. Like I’m in a bubble that’s a little bit separate. Very disconnected. This is dissociation apparently. Because things are hard.
Emotionally and physically exhausted. Good night