What if it’s turning toxic like before?
All I hear is “you’re not good enough” and “no one wants you” but I’m the only one saying it, to myself.
All the anger is still there and it gets taken out on others. It’s not fair.
This anger has to be dealt with. But how? Turning the anger on myself just exhausts me and I still can’t let it out the right way. I’m so angry all the time. It’s got to come out somehow. But safely. Somehow…
Imagine if people had to deal with the consequences of their actions, maybe then they wouldn’t be so evil. Maybe then they’d see what they are doing.
If you say something enough times it might become true. What if that’s true. Stop pushing him away.
But he’s not safe. Never safe.
No one is safe.
I don’t want to be alone but I don’t want to be with people either.
Feeling pretty gloomy.
I need to be more independent but I can’t do it. How do I do it?
After a long time of relying on people, the idea seems so crazy.
I want to help other people but I know I need to fix myself first.
Fix because I’m broken.
I don’t know how to be normal. I don’t know how to stop this whole thing.
There are so many things I want(ed) to do in life… now I just want to be happy.
Shame it’s not as easy as it sounds.
I’m so tired of fighting