Mirror

I look at myself in the mirror and I am disgusted. I hate myself. I see fat. I see something ugly. I see only flaws in myself. I see something I don’t want to be.

I don’t understand how anyone could be attracted to me when I am so ugly. I don’t see what S sees in me at all. He says I should do something about it if I think I’m fat. But I’m scared of failing. What if I try and it doesn’t work? Then I’d feel even worse. Or what if I can’t stop once I start, I don’t want to go down that road.

How can we see such different things?

I wish I could feel good about myself but I don’t know how. There’s nothing to feel good about. I’m nothing but a disappointment to myself.

I guess I’m feeling low.

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3 thoughts on “Mirror

  1. dmdeluca17 says:

    The only option is failure IF you never try.

    Every day, every moment, every breath is an opportunity to change, to learn, to grow and to better yourself and those around you.

    Take one step.

    Take another.

    Then another.

    And yet another.

    Before you know it…

    you’ll be walking toward your goal…

    A better you.

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