Note: Don’t you hate it when you nearly finish writing a post and then somehow it disappears?! Not impressed!!
Some strange things have been going on recently. I have been “waking up” in the middle of the night and seeing spiders. It was really strange and quite scary!! I felt completely awake and could see them.
The first time, I woke up, saw a massive spider on the ceiling, and was half way across the room shouting “there’s a spider!!” much to the confusion of my boyfriend who was asleep at the time. Indignant that the spider existed, I switched the light on to show where it was, and low and behold…. no spider.
Another time, I saw loads and loads of small spiders crawling up the wall towards me. Little black spiders crawling everywhere and coming out of nowhere. I was awake but as this had already happened a few times at this point, I managed to tell myself they weren’t there, and properly woke up. Sure enough, on closer inspection there was precisely zero spiders on the wall.
With a combination of the spiders thing, the crawling sensation (which I’ve written about before) and hearing buzzing (like wasps) when there is none*, I started to worry… What is going on? Am I going crazy?!
I decided to mention it at my CBT session on Monday because I was worrying about it. I explained the spiders to A and she said it isn’t (that) unusual and they are called hypnagogic hallucincations. They occur on the boundary between sleep and wake and they are nothing to worry about (phew!) The crawling sensation which I wrote about before is due to anxiety (according to the GP and A) and the wasp noises are probably anxiety too. Who knew so many bugs could be a figment of my imagination!**
On the NHS website it says:
It is relatively common for people to have hallucinations just as they’re falling asleep (hypnagogic), or as they start to wake from sleep (hypnopompic).
You may hallucinate sounds or see things that don’t exist, such as moving objects or even a formed image such as a person (people may think they’ve seen a ghost).
The last couple of nights I haven’t seen any spiders, so fingers crossed they are gone! I know they are not real but it was scary when I thought they were!
*I am absolutely terrified of wasps.
**I nearly typed “bee” here instead of “be” – I have insects on the brain!