Today I started trying to make a revision timetable (I’m not sure why I’m bothering, I’ll never stick to it anyway!)
I guess it’s good to have a plan though.
But it’s made me realise how much there is to learn – way too much!
For 1 exam, I can get away with learning 2 out of 3 topics, which is by no means easy but not quite so bad as learning the entire syllabus, but for others I have to learn EVERYTHING. There is an essay question (pick 1 out of 4) and short answer questions (pick 3 out of 4) meaning you can’t do targeted revision… damn!
I’ve made a list of the topics I’ve got to learn and it’s a bit daunting to say the least! And now I’m procrastinating by blogging instead of revising… oops!
At least most of my exams are quite spread out, so I guess I’m lucky there!
And just think, come the 28th May I will be free from exams for over a year (because of my year abroad!)
I am very thankful at this moment that I am feeling much better than I have been for most of this academic year. Although the amount of work seems daunting and scary, and my motivation levels are not as high as they should be, I am in a much better position now than I was a couple of months ago, and I think I can do this.
I may not be able to do as well as I want to, but I’m going to give it my best shot. I’ve had enough of letting depression beat me, and I feel like I can fight it. I’m so glad I’ve got my CBT as it really seems to be helpful (even if it does result in A LOT of crying!) so hopefully by the end of my CBT I will be feeling much better.
I know there is still a long way to go. For example last night I walked home from my friend’s house (owl) and got genuinely scared by a car park ticket machine! I jumped and gasped, thinking it was a person! The rest of the walk home I was hyper-aware of everything, and anxiety levels were high, who knows why! I felt pretty silly after, it (obviously) didn’t even move and it made me jump!!
But overall things are pretty alright at the moment. And I’m back to blogging which is nice – I’ve really missed it!
I’ve caught up on a lot of reading but I don’t have the time to read over a month’s worth of blogs unfortunately, so there are some bits I’ve missed, but now I’m up to date, hopefully I’ll be able to keep up better now!!
Anyway, enough Ellie rambles for now… back to do some work I think!!
Lots of love,
Ellie xxx
AnxiousElephant 
Trying your best is all you can ever do, whatever the situation. I’m glad you’re mostly winning the battle xoxoxo
Thanks WeeGee 🙂 xxx
Hey Ellie, check out my post today, it’s talking about startling easy…lol it’s funny how our stuff ties in sometimes…all the very best on your exams!
Hi Zoe, just read your post! I was thinking as I read it that it was strange we mentioned the same topic today! 😛 Thanks 🙂 xx
i know eh?!
Good luck! Take each day at a time, don’t panic if you don’t stick to the schedule and spread out the different bits you have to do. The mention of a revision timetable will always make me think of Rimmer from Red Dwarf (probably way before your time) and the fact he always made such a mess of his exams because he concentrated so much on the timetable lol http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j5mqbKs1PoI have a giggle at listening to that 😉 xox
I am glad you are feeing better and more hopeful. Sometimes therapy is incredibly painful (I do a lot of crying in mine too…), but I think sometimes that can be cathartic and very valuable. You may have work to do, but starting on the road is the hardest bit. I hope it all (exams and therapy) goes well. x