I just want to do something; something that will make me feel better.
I’ve tried writing I’ve written two poems this afternoon (that’s the first time in a long time that I’ve written anything) but they are rubbish. Need more work.
I thought about doing some painting or something. But I don’t know if I’d feel better – I’m rubbish at art so would it just make me feel like a failure?
I just want something to make me feel better. Something other than hiding away and sleeping.
I’ve given myself today off – no work, just trying to relax. I might pop to the shops later, I have basically run out of food, and maybe some arty stuff would be good.
I wish I had a talent that I could do. Some people are musical, arty, sporty… everyone seems to have something, but I don’t. Or maybe I haven’t found mine yet. Who knows?
I’m feeling very fed up at the moment. Fed up and lost. I don’t really know what I’m doing with myself. There’s always so much to do and yet I don’t feel like doing any of it. I’ve told Mr Maps that I’m doing work. Well that’s a lie. Not today.
Any ideas of ways to feel better (just for a little while)? Or ways to relax, or even – have fun?!