Let me sleep

Trigger warning – maybe. Suicidal thoughts etc, read only if you’re safe.

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I want to die, sleep forever,

I want to be finally at peace,

The pain never seems to leave me,

While I live it’s a matter of survival

Not living life to the full,

I’m trying to keep up,

To keep going through all the pain,

But I’m tired and I need a rest,

I want to sleep, sleep forever,

Then all the pain will be washed away.

If the pain could be removed,

I would like to live my life,

But surviving isn’t fun,

And somehow life isn’t what it’s cracked up to be,

And I find my thoughts wandering,

And find myself thinking over and over:

I want to die, just let me sleep.

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I’m sick of surviving, I want to live. (Or die)

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17 thoughts on “Let me sleep

  1. aallegoric says:

    You shouldn’t pick the latter … you’ll get through this.
    I hope you can feel better again soon and let these sinister thoughts pass (ignore that it’s me writing this, *cough*).
    Sending you lots of hugs xoxo

    • anxiouselephant says:

      Thank you Juliet, I know I will get through this – I can’t let this depression beat me!! And I guess you’re like me…can give good advice, but can’t take your own 😛 Thanks for the hugs xxxx

  2. stuff I said says:

    I understand your words and the feelings. I’m sending you lots of support and comfort. You are strong and this will pass and the clouds will lift, hang in there and be very kind to you. xxx

  3. Bourbon says:

    Tell me to butt out if you like but it feels like since you went back to Uni suddenly things have got really bad? Is that a correct observation or am I just missing the point? Worried about you xx hugs and love

    • anxiouselephant says:

      Thanks for the hugs and love Bourbon, it really means a lot. I’m not sure really, at first things felt a bit better here, then worse again… I think it’s just the ups and downs of depression, rather than being related to being back. Don’t worry about me, I will be fine as long as I have such lovely friends as you! 🙂 xx

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