This is very strange.
I am really not feeling myself at the moment, not that I’m complaining!
I haven’t been able to complete everything from my to – do list, but I don’t care. I am not stressed or anxious about it, I literally couldn’t give a monkeys… I can do it tomorrow, or the next day..
I went out tonight to see a couple of uni friends and we went to a pub to have a drink and a chat. There was a group of about 8 of us, and usually this kind of social situation would fill me with dread! Today, I was fine, I didn’t feel anxious, and was actually able to chat to people I don’t know! I only had a few moments of feeling awkward in the whole evening!
As I walked back to my house, across town, in the pouring rain I felt relaxed, a sense of peace. This is most unusual! I don’t know what it is…
Maybe it’s because I have the (official) diagnoses now? Maybe it’s the new meds? (But I’ve only been taking them since Thursday!) Maybe it’s being back in Lancaster? Or maybe it’s just something in the air!
I’ve had a feeling like “everything is going to be okay!” today. I don’t know why, or how, but it seems that (at least for now) my hope has been restored. I feel that I can and will get to where I want to be, I can and will get better, and this year can and will be good!
Just wanted to share my positivity with you all! I hope it lasts!