It’s sunny in Lancaster*, and it’s sunny in my mind**. Today there is hope.
I’m not saying I magically feel better, or even that I do feel dramatically better, but today I feel like there is hope for the future.
There is hope because I have started my CBT. There is hope because I’m trying a new medication. There is hope because at the end of the month I will see the psychiatrist. And there is hope because for the first time in a long time, I am looking forward to something.
Last night I booked some flights to Germany for during the Easter holidays. I will be going to stay with Sheep who is doing her year abroad this year! I am excited to visit the place where she is so happy, to see the sights of a part of Germany I haven’t been to before, and to spend time with one of my best friends on holiday!
Let’s hope this enthusiasm stays!
There is hope. We will all get through this!
*If you’ve ever been to Lancaster, you’ll know how unusual this is!
**And if you know me, you’ll know how unusual this is too!
Nice one =D Enjoy your day
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Yeah
Sunny is good 
Yeah….The sunshine definitely makes most days seem better! My sister was struggling with major depression and was trying all kinds of meds. About 3 months ago she found the “right” one and is doing so, so much better. Stay hopeful!!!
Yeah I’m hoping I’ll find the right one too! Thanks
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Yay for hope, and I’m glad you feel better today! xo
Good to see you are happy again Ellie, you deserve to be happy. Hope your trip to Germany is good too.
Thanks MMS
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That sounds cool! Where in Germany does sheep live? (You don’t have to answer if you don’t want to and I’m jut curious.)
For a second I’d thought of e-mailing you a screenshot of this but then I thought it’s too silly 
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You know, I’m writing a term paper in linguistics that is based on corpus research and I had to think of you a couple of days ago because someone in the corpus talks about Lancaster and the rain
She lives in Hessen in Bensheim
And oo that’s cool! I would’ve found it funny! 
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Glad you’re feeling better and that the sun is shining.